Ok, so what you see here isn't actually the true an authentic real thing - this is in fact a temporary version to 'see how it looks' - but this is the plan for the tattoo booked at the end of the month.
I've been considering having something similar done for a while. Specifically it's to cover over scars that are there from a previous phase in my life. Initially it was going to be latin, but that's only because Latin is pretty. Arabic just seemed a more personal choice. I started to get my head together in Egypt - things sort of progressed from there. So it would seem fitting that the message I'm posting to myself would be in Arabic. The traslation is "Good Enough" - it's a pointed message to remind me to keep believing it as it appears I keep forgetting. True of home, work and relationships. I burn up a hell of a lot of energy worrying about all three - that I'm not doing enough, that I'm not committed enough, that I'm neglecting duties or just not up to scratch. I worry myself into states of stress that are occasionally difficult to handle, for DH, not just me. It would seem that if I put as much effort into worrying about meeting expectations (even if they are just my own), as I do into actually getting stuff done, I'd be a lot more succesful! Which leads on to worrying about worrying too much. Garh!
So in my strange twisted mind, having this mantra of sorts permenantly inscribed onto my body is a way of stating out loud that I finally believe it and won't ever let myself forget again. It doesn't mean I won't doubt it - I'm not kidding myself, but it's more of a reminder, say a skin style post it. Some people pay for therapy, I make my own.
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